-Dying To Live-

lala

2005-05-01T07:58:00.000-07:00

play e smack k...
oh its my dads birthday.. and he doesn want me to get out of the house today...
makes no sense...

2005-04-11T05:19:00.000-07:00

whatever to you...
two face guy...
sorry sorry----> haha.. was playing around...
talk cock to cr8 misunderstandings..
anyway...
im lucky i am true to myself..
and am willing to study..
and dont open house everyday...

oh ya.. luqman and ramos's bday is coming.... no BITCHES SLUTS OR WHORES ALLOWED ... ramos and luqman dont like it

what a bitch...

2005-04-09T06:47:00.000-07:00

you know what? what do you do when ple cant get over stuff and wanna spread stuff? when their so shameless... scared that ple will pyscho their crush.. whats there to be afraid if uve never done wrong.. whatever... STFU...you suck retard...

2005-01-28T21:38:00.000-08:00

harry has no balls....

and my bday is coming.. 2nd of march.. hehe

2005-01-23T06:41:00.000-08:00

im back after a long while... dont rilli wanna say th stuff hthat ive been doing.. but the party was gr8t.. haha.. bathos... okay.. im going skool tmr.. have fun.. bye

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2005-01-16T07:17:00.000-08:00

hmm.... isit true? haha.... the night at janas gathering was pretty damn damn... went cycling in jeans and has fish and co. then had the problem of fake ic's plus i saw this damn cool man who had a piercing on his ear so huge that it could store a cigarette.... f*ck man... this thursday is the real partaye i guess.. i need some ideas for a big pool and a big space and mayb a bbq pit.. any suggestions pls tag my board.. thanks... new eek ahead.. here i come

the way

2005-01-09T05:18:00.000-08:00

ive been thinking.. and ive thought of it! pretty f*cked up.. but anyway.... to achieve success, you gotta be patient and not rush into things.. thats what im gonna do... yea....

screwy chewy

2005-01-09T02:02:00.000-08:00

whats the signal? good or bad?

boring and stupid shit

2005-01-08T07:23:00.000-08:00

hey.. i gotta see the com time everytime to log in.. when the hell am i gonna get my new com or old one repaired.. this sucks shit...
today was sleepy... woke up around 3.. and then it started to rain like some screwed up tsunami thing and then it was so f*cking dark... but dinner spiced it up a bit.. but it was totally awkward man... HAHA... someone agrees with me... and then jason looked like a red baboon cos he ate some super spicy noodle.. phew...
i got church tmr.. have fun.. bye...

why the sudden time lag?

2005-01-05T06:45:00.000-08:00

hey... jus had tuition... shit ... long hours.. school is back to its old self.. tiring everyone out.. but this year is pretty cool with bryan lim and titi... haha... got a new harry guy... funny asshole.. and jonny.. funny asshole too... plus two retainees.. they look fierce... what to do? hmm... so... its a wednesday... the first week of school seems so long while 2 months of hols are done... ,,I,,

2005-01-04T04:51:00.000-08:00

back after a long while.. is zute sam? cos i guess he is.. haha... no its not through the song.. its through the videos i see.. his hands are plainly inivisble when he does the damn fast rolling...no doubt about it.. hows life... happy new year if you get to see this..

2004-12-26T01:47:00.000-08:00

shunyi needs a good guitarist

travis barker = steroid boy... haha

2004-12-25T05:08:00.000-08:00

i dont know how the hell travis barker plays so freaking fast,. its like... ,,I,, ... steroids i guess... haha... went to the driving range today.. pretty fun and nice... had to be serious cuz my dad was like so pro.. haha.... average abt 75 m? haha... well i would love to go down there again if possible... well... the holidays are ending.. school is resuming... back to square one.. well.... and the turkey was nice.... plus the stupid taxi show.. haha.... have fun.. and meryy christmas

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2004-12-14T09:32:00.000-08:00

,,I,,('_'"),,I,,

2004-12-12T06:46:00.000-08:00

hmm... ur the worst ive seen man.. i mean like wtf, the things out.. u didnt keep it tight.. not like i forced u to tell.. and ur pissed off over that..,,I,, you man.. b***H... ill put the knife through your stomach too..

watch it

2004-12-12T01:55:00.000-08:00

the g3 album is pretty cool huh... yea.. and the instrumental is coming... watch out for it.. it is coming out... gonna tug in bed...

ALBUM?ORCOPYBUM

2004-12-09T08:43:00.000-08:00

hmm... im gonna start doing the album.. gonna start picking the songs for the album... well.. thats only if red sea is free for the upcoming shit.. i wanna have something achieved in this holiday... something which three of us can be proud of... haha... i think we can lay it down.. and to the extent of some standard... i dont care if its lousy, as long as ive tried my best.. so.. wait for it to be out! woohoo! haha.. hmm.. i just bought a microphone.. two for 18 bucks.. those shitty ones.. but it still can be used.. and i got the system in my room.. so it can record and play stuff... woo..all set.. gonna lay the foundation of it this round... before i make my way to malaysia to see what i can boggle upon..hehe... well.. its pretty early in the morning.. going with shunyi and des to swee lee to check the new batch of ibanez guitars and the transparent bass.. off i go to my little bed.. well its quite big though.. thats for now.. night

2004-12-08T01:45:00.000-08:00

.... oo... jus came back from swee lee.. shunyi went to get the cables and the compression sustainer or whatever.. hmm.. yesterday was fun.. des and redsea came over.. and we played all the small things, besides the voice, it was perfect.. very nice.. haha.. sometimes i wonder which type of guitariost really is the best? or the most perfect for my style of music.. but anyway.. i haven been on blog for a while.. and here i am now... that will do for today.. bye

2004-12-05T18:53:00.000-08:00

i see u baby, shaking that ass

2004-12-03T20:23:00.000-08:00

hey.. back! finally... after what seemed a long holiday for me... up with the training... and lots more of that... jus came back from the mental talk.. pyschologist shit.. it was pretty well... and had chicken rice.. im spending way too much money recently.. that even i myself feel so damn guilty.. how? hmm.... im gonna whack some stuff outta my drums now.. so.. bye!

theres always a prob with the heading..

2004-11-24T01:44:00.000-08:00

im using my dads laptop.. pretty nice. haha..and i took out new batteries for my mp3 but i got them mixed up.. the 2 new ones and 2 old ones. shit..haha.. its been raining.. kinda sucks.. hmm.. todsays the only free day i guess.. tmr is training training AGAIN.. haha..ive seen it through.. this world revolves around money.. it rilli does.. when can u rilli get a good friend then doesn betray you for money.. its tempting.. it rilli is.. but u have that strong will? hmm.. thats when it comes into good use.. well.. im signing off.. thats for now.. have fun..

2004-11-22T02:10:00.000-08:00

anyuan is a cheeky asshole... ask him what he did man... haha... anyway... f*** la.. last yr i misssed berita harian cos of the holiday.. this year cos of anyuan! ur the captain and u didnt tell me there was the competition? i was sick and you never tell me... ,,I,, you man... wa lau... never mind... im boundbar... haha

2004-11-20T18:33:00.000-08:00

inspirations can make one fight for something.... haha... im not rilli in the mood to blog today.. cos its early in the morning.... im going for th finals of the aviva later on.. gtg.cya

shit was it tiring

2004-11-18T06:54:00.000-08:00

today was tiring went to indoor then back to barker then to indoor then back to barker... friendly and the aviva.... shit tiring man.... i gtg go sleep...

Mario?

2004-11-17T04:18:00.000-08:00

today was nice.... shunyi came over.. and then mario, sid and that fucker came over too..... mario's ok with the guit but he loves to learn.. which is good of cos to shunyi.... and sid jus stoned and bought lunch for us..... we recorded a song shit... and jus goofed arnd.... todays quite fun.. like a real joseyboyi thing.. ahaha.... im kinda tired now... gonna take a nap... see ya

oootata

2004-11-14T23:21:00.000-08:00

this holiday sucked... rained... then had to see a couple quarell... and then come back to adjust the bass thing... but it looks nicer now... so.. im planning to make some stupid shit with some parts....

and some people never ever grow up....
and some people never ever learn.........
those some people are losers..................

can anyone provide me with a idea on what to do during this holiday?

2004-11-11T22:32:00.000-08:00

everytime you do that thing you do.... haha... thats a nice song... i can play it though... maybbe thats why its nice to me.... i got tutorial later... fuck.. the whole day wasted again... rainy... hmmm.... am i gonna spend the rest of november and december like that? waking up at 11.... watch a dvd... have lunch... hang out with my friends.. spend money... come home slack and jack... and fuck arnd.... then watch tv and sleep? i gotta think of something new.. thats before shunyi passes the recording of the guitar tune then can the song be done.. when is he going to! f*ck man.... anyway... im going down to borders to read some mags.. bye..this morning sucked... real badly

2004-11-10T05:01:00.000-08:00

im back here..again.. dont know why.... but i need a motivation or inspiration to do that thing... or something.... its like that type of aura.. an aura not many experience.. so no point talking bt it.. cos u may not know what im tokin bt.... have you ever wondered whether people see your blog.. the answer is not really.... cos they only see ur blog either cos they look up to you or oif its a girl, he loves you... so its basically a diary for you to put stuff down.. like when u quarel, blogger is alwayts here for you....i dunnoe where my life is sailing to... which direction is it heading to... has my sec 1 and first half of sec 2 spoiled the compass? the direction needle doesn move anymore.... im finding the direction myself.. and im glad to say.. i am headin the right way.... but the people on board my ship are gone.... they dont feel safe without a compass.... even if i had bought a new one which i already have.. they still wont give me another chance to lead them again.... why no chance? bcos of one mistake? this mistake is a big one.. the consequences are grave... they are not fatally grave, but grave cos the current life i am leading requires that thing but its missing.. and its missing due to my mistake.... can it come back? if only i had time to turn it back... i wish i would never ever have done that... sorry doesn make up for anything... but i wanna say sorry... cos till now.. i am sincere about saying it.... thanks for seeing the whole thing.. im gonna watch some tv.... bye.. hope that chance drops... to me.. or even i have to fight for it... pls show some hint... the candle in the darkness

Regrets have no space in life

2004-11-09T23:16:00.000-08:00

u know sometimes things in life make you really really regret doing wrong stuff...... u screw up something which u rilli wish for now..... and u rilli regret if theres no more chances left..... itrs all fated.. its how you go abt making up for them and lead a better life and not repeat the same mistakes.. looking back then, i rilli was gay.. now i know why they took me for a fool, a spartacus, a gay fuck..... i pissed them off so badly..... well.... from then, i think ive changed.. certain actions tell me.. i dont care abt the surroundings or at least try not to.... do what i want... the real meaning of what he told me..... stop asking those fucked up questions like : * isit gonna rain today? * and stuff like this... if only there was only one more chance.... IF ONLY.... i wished for it so badly.... but will it come? only god will know... and i hope it does.... ill rilli not screw it up.... but anyway... woke up late.. and i had this funny dream.... i was fighting! wwe.... haha.. and i won both rounds but got smashed and ended up in hospital... hahaha... what a loser i am in that dream... erm ok... im gonna check up stuff on drumming ... the 1 ena thing which sam said.... ok.. off to do that.... bye.....

always having the old shoes

2004-11-09T04:01:00.000-08:00

my bro got a new phone... and i got his old phone.... ,,l,, man.... anyway.... today had good weather.. but the rain made me feel sleazy and i wenta sleep... and here i am.... using my bros com on the sly.. to update the blog....

2004-11-08T03:26:00.000-08:00

I AM SPARTACUS

alright... thnaks steph, once again

2004-11-08T03:06:00.000-08:00

hi.. im back.. jus had dinner... and thanks to steph the blog looks nicer....

2004-11-08T03:04:00.000-08:00

steph did this..... and i wanna say thanks man.... so much.... owe u lunch

2004-11-08T02:15:00.000-08:00

oo.. our first songs almost done... thats almost.... hmmm training and jus whacking the com.. maybe skate arnd later tonight... im damn bored.. F*CKA MAMA

2004-11-06T08:26:00.000-08:00

tama stagestar

2004-11-04T17:30:00.000-08:00

the morning was gd... delighted for russell and red sea who made it back into express..... had some udon at school for 150.. plain though.. but soupy was gd..... today resembled graduation at colleges at american schools ... and at 2.. the drum set is coming... i love my life currently.. jus hope it remains... and i can take the bad stuff gladly...wompawee!

2004-11-04T04:08:00.000-08:00

TAMA STAGESTAR!.... woohoo.... drum set.. im happy... the bands happy.... but my mum aint.. cos its 640 lesser in her bank.. although i have to pay her 200 back.... hmm..... i got the whole wall with my drum stuff now.. gonna look forward to it tmr... Weee..ok im off bye.......

2004-11-01T07:55:00.000-08:00

spend the day at swee lee.... drum sets are nice.. but damn ex....what 640 with no cymbals... fuck you!..... but thats the price la... im jus being a singaporean..hehehe...hmm..... gonna get one set soon.... but hope its not too ex for my mums liking... hope ill get one... oh yea./.. got the new song done... except for the beats and the chorus lyrics.... anyway.. im gonna sleep

2004-10-29T21:26:00.000-07:00

colin is such a loser... * oh ive landed my varial kick.. oh i landed it down 4.... hey ive landed my 360 while playing skate for fun.... oh i can boardslide.... oh i can nose manual f/s and b/s shuv out... haha.. when asked to do.... ( oh im er... er... not very conistsent..) ahahaha.... what a loser.... only knows huwta bullshit.... cant do stuff and goes rnd telling he can.... hahaha.... what a joke... cant stand it anymore.... but anyway.... im down with viral infection.... sleepy deezy.... ZZZZzZZZ......... its noon.... ill be back for more tonight... if i can....

another day passes by

2004-10-28T02:05:00.000-07:00

hi.... im back.... after a fucked up training session and a fucked up relieved coach.. fucking dog... well.... i admire the polo players devotion to polo... its jus so obvious everytime.... hmmm...... im done and over with sec 2 life... a life full of excitements, a life ful of troubles.... a life, i would rememeber forever.... but it was scary.. the guys and all.... sec 3 seems big.. it appears big, and its said to be big..... the combinations and all... new type of devotion to studies.... i wanna study, but can i? i have no idea.... oh yea... im gettin a new comp soon... and a drum set.... so there a proper place for the rest to go to.... im gonna jus add some songs into my mp player and then catch some tv... hopefully its dry tonight so i can skate.... and ill be off to the holidays...

2004-10-25T06:32:00.000-07:00

hmm.... i jus scracted my finger.... but it was pretty fun... haha.... rolled down the hills of peckhay road lying on my deck.... AIMING for the fucking coca cola can and it was stucked to the truck infront... ahah... ouch.. that screeching sound was cool..... the metalic screech.... creeekeeeekee.... haha..... and then snapped my finger got caught.... what a dumbass.... i know.. thats me.. always me.... hmmm..... im going to sec 3.. = new study lvl and long pants.... cooll.... im dead.... i wanna do double science.... but the results dont permit me to.... so gotta try appealing... now i know what they all meant.. study hard! yaya whatever.... haha.... ill tryto.... and there was thanksgiving today.... the christian band was said to be lousy.... but i dunnoe.... it was still music to me.... OH YA.... I WANNA LEARN PHOTOGRAPHY>..... woohoo.... its so cool... gonna save up for a camera.... and then take shots of people and places with that eseential feeling! engage me as ur photographer... ill do it for free! im serious..... sounds gay but ill do it for free.... take pictures of places you want for ur project and all..... ill fucking do it..... im dead serious.... ok.. enough... bye

2004-10-23T07:57:00.000-07:00

it takes a while to adjust to certain stuff i gues.... like not giving a hoot about the feelings and being calm.... hmm.... jus came back from newton hawker.. the cockles are nice.. but BLOODY>. hope its alright... jona is damn funny.. he fucking broke off a bike chain and stole the bmx and rode it home.. bitch fuck man.. these ruggers are so strong.... and i landed a nollie over a coke can! woohoo..... nice feeling.... nollie is quite easy.... just that i take a long time to prepare b4 popping and dragging... hmm... im gonna take a shower.... catch some dc video.... and sleep... church tmr.... thanks and night...

2004-10-22T19:18:00.000-07:00

so early now.... had a boring day.. heard abt some mark twoon guy.. hmmm..... i dont feel like blogging.. im off....

POPINATOR

2004-10-20T08:59:00.000-07:00

haha.... jeco jocky.. doesn know this girl then he went arnd spreading or rather saying shyt bt her.. haha.... joker.... geddin it alredi.... ok.. i got a mp3 ONCE AGAIN... and im addicted to euro trip! haha... the part where it says IM THE POPE>.oh yea i am... and AMERICAN PIE 2! allright.. im the sherminator.. a sophisticated sex robot sent back thoruigh time to change the future of one lucky lady... haha.. what a geek.... hmm.... trainings on everyday.... and ive straightened out my thinking... im not gonna harp on stuff which has happened... or trying to make it up for.,. like the sam thing.... im not gonna try to go back or harp on any small hope.. im contented with the way things are.. he giving me advice on tricks he is good at... talking and giving opinions.. in fact.. its better... and at least i know huw not to irritate him anymore..... ok.. im off.. anyway,..... night... im the pope.. oh yea

2004-10-18T08:48:00.000-07:00

whats up with joahs dad..hmm... euro trip.. SCOTTY doesn know..haha.. im gonna pack up for skool.. and btw i got a new mp3.. rhomba or whatever fuck.. so catch up wit you next time.... night

2004-10-14T10:07:00.002-07:00

tired and drowsy from tonnin on wed night... had the movie white chicks.. the black niger i real dam funny.. the singing the 1000 mile part.. i had laughed my balls off.... haha.... whats up with the dome thing.. had 7 hrs of it throughout... ate 4am supper at youth park.. chucken curry noodles? hmmm..... then walked to the mrt and home to sleep till 130... jona and chow slept on the floor.. dun blame me.. they wanted to.. well.... and i slept till7.. hanged arnd with des and russ... and then had american pie 2 with dodgeball plus euro trip.. the girls arr really hot... woohoo.... and i guess il be skating wit colin and leon tmr... cyu arnd..

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2004-10-08T22:00:00.000-07:00

hmmm..... so yar.. im bak.... going out with the guys later... and im feel so bad... my middle fingers swollen... due to the 5-0 at the curb and i leaned to much back..... haha.... i cant wait for the dnt paper to finish man.. fuck.... anyway.... its abt time to go...

2004-10-08T07:48:00.000-07:00

back from the hozy smoky newton.. im dead tired.. so ill make it short.. exams are mind concentrating.. sleeppy sleepy fuck you! im dead tired.. landed couple of kickflips.. im off..

kickflip oh yea..... oh yea!

2004-10-03T04:33:00.000-07:00

HEY!.... woohoo! i landed my kickflip twice today! wahahahaha....... now i know why sam and ken went so hyypering berserked when they landed it..... Wahahaha!... it felt damn great fucking good..... and im over the moon.... well.. now i mus practise on it.. but b4 tt... its to my exams this and next week.... damn studying hard for it..... hope to do well...... and after that. its time to get this party started.... wahaha..... wel.... im off to do my spelling for chinese tmr.... bye.

composers suck

2004-09-30T08:31:00.000-07:00

travis and blink 182 rock man..... their freaking cool... espacially their hair and stuff... and travis's arrangement of the set is so cool..... oh gawd fuck.... hmm..anyway.. another toruble case.. come to think of it.. everyone hates him..so wtf can i be afraid of.. well my eng exams up tmr... catcha all later.... wish me luck.. im off....bye!!!!

2004-09-30T01:46:00.000-07:00

im at des house now........................and some ple jus love to make trouble man.... wtf... hmm....... but nvm.. i know i didnt do wrong.. so ya... im off to do my history...bye!

u notice i dont put titles? cos i always forget....hehe

2004-09-25T21:34:00.000-07:00

back... haha... last night mwas damn grand..... and definitely we sounded nice playing the edited version of now that ur near.... wah... haha.... honours night was cool... the food was ok... chicken beef..all the same shit... long sleeves, black pants, tie black shoes... oooo.... and wer suppose to go for supper but those assholes backed out saying what too late and all... it was only 10... hmmm.... i took the heliumed balloons! and i looked like some fool hanging them at the back of my bag, like the parachute for a space shuttle landing on earth... haha.....hmm.... i saw this quiksilver pencil box.. i think im gettin it, its big, just the type i need... and i smashed desmonds 300 dollar discman while looking at it.. haha... but luckily it was alright.... hmm.... im gettin a new deck and a pair of trucks today if i managed to put on my clothes and get out to far east i suppose.... my mums in genting and im sorta the king now... haha....

well.... thats all for today, the sunday. exams are coming..... so are the holidays..... cyou.... very soon...

2004-09-23T08:53:00.000-07:00

ahaha.. found a phone.... but not mine./.. and im close to landing the kickflip.. i started flicking correctly.... and somehow im gettin livelier... and im gonna start skating again after the exams.... and the dying to live video wallpaper at the very end with the skull and zero-dying to live is damn cool... woohoo...

i dun like writing titles?

2004-09-18T07:50:00.000-07:00

hmmm....... weird....... todays BIGGEST event..... the kelly studio? well..... he taught me those funny beatz.. but it sounded cool.... and shunyi has that steve vai ibanez guitar... for wad? ahaz.... but anyway....... dont really know wad to do these days besides studying..... so ya.... 2 more weeks.... and ill have my prog lined up for all i fucking care..... imsoinlovewithyou

2004-09-16T05:57:00.000-07:00

back.. but this time its at my aunts place.. or granduncles place.. which makes his daughter my aunt.. so anyway.. ya... another fight in skool.... then another fight.... then got handphone ring but no asshole wans to own up.. so? all kena.. f him la... anyway.... rainy rainy these few days.. no idea what to do besides study.... ah... im so freaking hell gonna land it.. i dun care.. confirm will... haha... and for tmr.... its just tutorial the whole day... yepp... the whole day.... so ya.. im off.... bye

2004-09-13T08:48:00.000-07:00

coms screwed.. cant go on internet explorer.... yea.. so its my bros com once in a while... ok... so here it goes.. ya.. im living my life to the fullest... studying really hard.. at least to myself i can be accountable... and love life! haha... well its going well..... hmmm..... somehow ple have masks on their faces.. and im glad i tore one off.. he is always those fierce and bitchy and f*cked uo type.. but i was talking to him today and i found out he is a great guy... really frendly.. yea... and ya.. im off to bed... and ya... i can shuv down a deck deck high curb!

2004-09-08T04:30:00.001-07:00

when ur in love with someone.. u tend to treat that persoon differently.. but can that person feel it? i dunnoe... how? face it....

2004-09-08T04:30:00.000-07:00

when ur in love with someone.. u tend to treat that persoon differently.. but can that person feel it? i dunnoe... how? face it....

blah.. back in e mood for it

2004-09-04T06:44:00.000-07:00

haha... punk'd is damn funny... makes the victims suck shit till they cant take it then jack them... wad the hell.... yea.. had dinner at novena.. well.... relationships arnt everything.. so fuck them man.... although its nice to have a girl.... wooo..... hmmm.... gonna go for red seasd party.... u asshole! what type of party u having! what the hell.... haha..... weekends going nice.. holidays are here... but its study time.... hmmm.... sometimes i can land the kickflip.. but sometimes i just cant at all.... dunnoe why.. need some enlightenment.... and i got up the youth stage.... thats the best thing of all this week.... well... garden hotel was nice also.... thnx jon for the drinks and the free pool.... well jerro and jon are pro.... not like terence... act ah beng to play that only... haha.... well... im off to the study table.... have a nice night

2004-09-04T02:00:00.000-07:00

Heartbroken..... life has to go on..... it always has to

2004-08-29T06:36:00.000-07:00

back after a long time..... barbecue chalet for des bday which is today... and connies bday at k box and marche... that fucking kbox ass... joel.. go whack him la.... haha..... well marche food is even more ex then i thought man.. fuck... damn.... but it was a bday so bo pian... well kbox was funny.... jerro was laughing like a mad dog... with his mouth going AAAAAAAAAHhhhhhhhh..... haha..... the vindicated song.. everyones crazy over it.... hmm.... tomoro is important... but well.. prepared for it.... so yea.... chalet was fun.... with a barbecue at 4 am.. and mahjong till 6am.... and slept for 2 hours... i slept at 7 pm and woke up at 8 am this morning... thats how tired i was... well.. off for studies... bye

dejected, helpless and lost

2004-08-24T07:32:00.000-07:00

i feel damn down... all along i tot i cld do wo them... it went well for a while... but it just isnt what i think it is.. i aint that strong.... after watching the credits for the video.. i feel so helpless.... i fucked up my own chance there..... how i wish to be in there... its so fucked up when i see all of them sitting and here i am feeling left out... i shld have rilli controlled myself that day... how i hope to be there again..... sonehow it alwaes gets bigger during the mid of the year... like last year sidne mike they all.... then end of the year.. but june was horrid... very few... and now mikes back.. there julian... wan.... hanshuen... JUST FUCK IT OK!!!im not blaming anyone.. thios has all been my own doing, but what can i do to replace things back in order?... what to do.... haiz.....

for jinwei, ur a fucker... : oh the shoe is in my lcoker... ill give it to you tomoro...
and then it ends up with jadon... now i know how sam felt when i screwed the thing about the deck.... it feels really bad... but wheres the chance? just one more? just one tiny weeny little peasy bit can? pls? ....i rilli dunnoe.... i feel so dejected... is this the way he wants me to feel for lying? i hope so.... and i hope not... i just want one more chance... will it be given?

2004-08-23T07:42:00.000-07:00

shit man....i felt i was acting... i got flunged to the damn wall and i banged my head... accidents... but it hurt man... timothy.. whats with ur strength? ahaiz... well... today was damn slack.. as usual... and theres the chalet this friday! and a party this saturday! woohoo.... wait.... yea! hmm.... tonights gonna be short.. so bye

2004-08-22T03:21:00.004-07:00

hmm./// my conscience sure did prick me ya? haha... crept into the pri school.... skated there.. oh shit.. the wound shure did hurt when i landed the 5 set.... ouch... and the fride was open so i took a fruit juice... heehee.... well... problems arising.... their surfacing.. i wanna live like i did b4.. will a chance be ther for me?

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2004-08-22T03:21:00.000-07:00

think thinK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-08-21T06:40:00.000-07:00

saving your face or accomplishing your dream is more important? ask yourself that... would you rather get embarrassed and dont realize ur dream or be bold and realize ur dream? that made me ponder... well... today had rugby.. ahaha... the running tired everyone out.. and then, there was an asshole...im not saying who.... who was damn idioticaly unreasonable... so what can i say
... i thought of this too... i wonder how can two people just hang out... even if their not so good friends... whats there to bitch bt? or discuss or wadeva? thats what im missing out on... i guess thats the point why sam says im ma rock, i dun have much to say, and when i say something.. it always aint nice a question.... or rather pissing or obvious one then... so its like i rather hang out with a group of people with diff ineterest which is close... and then like have ur own small group... its more fun to have 4 or 5 guys then to have 2.... so yea... basically my points there... if u cant get it, ur rilli dumb... which is worst then me.. i suppose sam shld know how bad that is to him... yea.. im off for sleep.... church and skating tomoro...

2004-08-20T07:30:00.000-07:00

never ending trouble, isit really that cool to act big and show some power? well... thats for you to think.... isit really cool walking down the hill of barker with a group of gangsters and finding trouble? well the real gangsters dont find trouble, but even if they have, they dint bring the trouble to the gang level, so i dunch know whats your take ont this... but for me? im living greatly, i have a damn nice **********, but not official, yea, so damn nice... and as far as my studies go? im making the best out of the opportunities that arise to me.... a test which i have been doing badly has come to a light at the end of the tunnel... and one thing, how not to let people know that ur always trying to insult them so that they insult you back? u tok nicely to them, they retaliate by saying extra stuff which never replied anything i said.... so ya... this is basically the world... live realisticaly...

2004-08-19T06:35:00.000-07:00

well... got into shit again... but its a rilli fuycking big story so i shant say it here... glad its ok.. i mean mr chan also came and arrested all of us here with the (illegal gathering) fuck man.. whats wrong.. but theres a secret behind it? i dunnoe.. thats what his looking for.. well.... damn i feel good with her... its like when i got into trouble, she expressed her concern and that made me rilli feel blessed to have her.. i love you.... yea.. gr8t... thats abt it and had a gr8t dinner.. rilli tired so im off... BAYEEEEEE~!!!!!

2004-08-17T07:00:00.000-07:00

things come things go.. things never stay unless their meant to be yours...

i dont mean any hostility to you

2004-08-14T21:41:00.000-07:00

well.. slept at 10 last night.. but somehow woke up at 1 am cos someone smsed me... insulting the band and all.... cos of one question i said : how did you know? and he treated it as a hostile question.. why is he always rebuting me? he doesn care.. he just fucks it and scolds... but then u see... ah forget it... i didnt mean it the way he was.. and about the part where i was afraid u would criticize us, it was being afraid, but he made it come true when he insulted.. i dunnoe... i was at fault too for saying those fucking shit.. so i must apologize.. most likely he is gonna be ya wadeva... like he always is... so... but nvm.. ive alredi apologised... quite himself to do whatever he wants which makes him happy... im saying all this in a nice manner.. so if he treats it as bitching and complaining about him, i cant do anything either... i sent the message alredi saying sorry so.. yea... woke up at 8... had to go to church but mums back hurted.. so continued sleeping.. had br8kfast.. then here i am now... checking out our next song after californiacation.. it rilli sounded sweet..... hehe.... thanks for everything shunyi... now.... for the next part.. my brothers coming back tomoro! woohoo..... miss him man.. so quiet around.... and something i just realised.. i think he is a real true scholar and useful guy.....head prefect nominee in p6... prefect in secondary school.... prefect councilor in sec 3, head prefect nominee for RI in sec 4.... and now, prefect for RJC and captain of singapores combine school softball team.. wad the hel.... hmmm.... i dunnoe what to say... im miles away.. haha... hope things go well today

2004-08-14T06:10:00.002-07:00

i just thought of something.... the two times where SOMEONE acted righteous and said i lie was all bcos of money..... what does that show? he gives a fuck only about money...so....

2004-08-14T06:10:00.001-07:00

i just thought of something.... the two times where SOMEONE acted righteous and said i lie was all bcos of money..... what does that show? he gives a fuck only about money...so....

2004-08-14T06:10:00.000-07:00

i just thought of something.... the two times where SOMEONE acted righteous and said i lie was all bcos of money..... what does that show? he gives a fuck only about money...so....

dong dong ting dong de dong de

2004-08-14T05:25:00.001-07:00

er fuck.. the whole thing got deleted due to access error.. tosday was superb.... the jamming part.. the beats and the crashed to californiacation... WOOWOOO.... i shall delete a part of the previous one... so that ends it.. ah.. red seas dancing on the road and almost got banged.. he was like oh fuck HEY!! then he walked back.. and the concert at waffle town for his dinner..... i think the friends in the band are pretty nice and funny.. so its like a new start from the old ones.. yea... im dead beat.. off to MVP then a nap...

2004-08-14T05:25:00.000-07:00

isit working?

2004-08-14T05:24:00.000-07:00

asd

dong dong qiang

2004-08-14T05:22:00.000-07:00

its me again.... the inventor.... today was super dooper freaking cool.... the californiacation song just when so well.... the crashing and the beats.. wahaha.... well someone wanted to go... but i dindt really want him around.. cos i thought he would definitely say those sarcastic fucking shit like ah your so lousy.. let me be it or something.... but if that wasnt what he planned.. then i dunt know..... i just wanna concentrate.. red sea was funny... dancing on the road and nearly got banged.... plus the concert at waffle town for his dinner.... AHAHA..... hehe.... k im dead beat.. gonna play MVP then off to have a nap

2004-08-13T08:00:00.000-07:00

how do i add stuff here?

you know something?

2004-08-13T00:30:00.000-07:00

gangs?fights? wad the hell... you know sometimes the more you try to get out of it, the more it haunts you.. and thats wads happening... ive been shunning it for quite some time and its been very peaceful till it suddenly pops out.. and you know whats the best part? i dont know what the fuck ive done... telling them ive got backing? my freinds should know that im not that kind.... so... what can it mean? it all boils down to one thing.. someones playing the middle role to sbaotage... SABOTAGE? get that fucking big word? so... it may not even bcome that serious.. but i view all fights and shit seriously cos i aint wanna get involved ever..... so its like..... nvm... parks closed for the weekend... so? no skating.. only at the curb and the banks.... got a sleep to catch.. bye

2004-08-12T08:53:00.000-07:00

shit man.. i got this many icons all on my com.. what spports betting... adware remover, dating, online pharmacy.. all the fucking pop up icons.. damn... hmm.... grindid the park box today.. felt good.. its real grind.. feel beta then the chancery one... well... had the brain scan and all.. hope results dont show anything... poppy pop pop.... where are you? sleeping now? i miss you.... i love you..... tomoros fri... relli fast this week.... i need shoe goo! but im lazy to get em... hmm..... should i get status or darkstar? my mind thinks

motiony be yourself

2004-08-11T05:11:00.000-07:00

friends come, friends go, true friends stay, suckers go..... thats what ive been thinking about.... am i a sucker? is being forced to leave considered a sucker? well thats the price you have to pay for doin some fucking thing twice i suppose.... which means you were being fucking childish zhenwen...... FUCKING GROW UP!!!!!....... im never going to stay this way forever..... im sec 2.. and you know what.. i can feel it.. its in the process .... certain things or incidents prove that it is happening..... but am i to be given one more chance? well.... thats for you to find out.... if your going to ask me what happened? well.. im not saying.. look to the future.. not to the past.... i am what i am.... just fuck it.... k... lets start with jona.... he is a damn funny guy.... monitor capability 100%.... bryan? well... a joker.. makes people laugh.. but somehow he never knows when to stop.... hmmm.... to suaku to understand? bryan.. haha.. well... ok.. today had double PE.. gpot banged by the same person as usual.. always.. first came leg then came shin then head... never seems to end.. an unwinding tunnel... so yea... thats basically my life.... i always end up bullied.. but i treat it as communication with my friends.... people have mood climates.. so bear with it if their your real friend

so ive been working on kickflips recently.... and the theory ive deduced is... pop drag flick pull back land... yea... change it if its wrong... and ill guess ill see you tomoro.....

what am i really?

2004-08-10T05:19:00.004-07:00

i just cant figure why when someone does something which i find it cool.. ill try my own version.. or ist just human instinct? well.... thats for me to figure it out.... well today went right... slept the whole day.. fucking fuckingly bored.... so yea.... landed my kiickflip on holding on a rail.. but at night lost it.. then got it back after 10 20 tries... i cant see what the fucks my front foot doing.. isit flicking? or kicking? just cant see... ill just try it out at the park where the guys can see and can tell me.... hm... starting school tomoro.... hate the fuckers there.... besides the band guys....geesh... just cant wait for evertything to happen again or something.... just fuck it man.. FUCK IT!... pardon the sensorness......

what am i really?

2004-08-10T05:19:00.003-07:00

what am i really?

2004-08-10T05:19:00.002-07:00

what am i really?

2004-08-10T05:19:00.001-07:00

what am i really?

2004-08-10T05:19:00.000-07:00

geesh proed

2004-08-09T03:22:00.000-07:00

that fuzzy hair guy with the pyjamas pants is so fucking pro... he was like frontside flip off... backside flip off.... frontside shuv off.... and everybody went wowowowow..... haha.. yea.... met a couple of new faces there.... and it was pretty cool.. learning howta kickflip.. dunno why... but my front foot always land next to the deck.. like it flicks but doesn come back.. sam, whats wrong? if u read this lemme know... dun wanna bother you but stil... yea... hmm... was suppose to paint my house red but the workers dint come over... amaryash u freaking idiot.. change here change there then finally u are the only one who cant make it... chao mo peng la you! heha.... nows in the evening on national day... gonna get some sleep.. then off to skate again in the night.... things just aint the same wo sam and the rest... it never will be

heal me, im heartsick

2004-08-08T08:33:00.000-07:00

theres this nice song from the school of rock, and the chorus goes like this

heel me, im heartsick, hungry thought i could survive on you,

hear my heartsick hungry cry,

im heartsick

back... did i come yesterday? well i think so... today was as usual.. sleepy dizzy... fell asleep outside the shop.. haha.. and the security guard was like ni bu ke yi zai zhe bian shui hor... wo hui bu gao xing ah! and i kept laughing.... so i went back.. had some eating spree.. with the chcolates, takoa balls... and the cakes... tomoro is gonna be gr8t i suppose... the bands coming... and eh... im not shure.. where the hells mike now.. whole night unreacheble... wad the hell... his phone is usually on what.. things cant work as well wo him i think...so.. the room is all geared up alredi... woohoo! landed my frontside shuv for the 3rd time... ahah yea! but somehow it just goes away if u dun do it... well... im dying to skate... saw the transworld video.. so proed fuck... yea.. im off to eat... my soup! yeepee....

2004-08-07T07:11:00.000-07:00

woohoo....! the crash, beats and the game of skate just fitted in nicely.. mikes really pro at the bass man... its like his part was so outstanding... the guitar solos by red sea and shunyi was gr8t too.... the rest played well too... the school of rock song was just so nice when it was played.. plus better then life and californiacation.... red seas another jack black.. crazy fuck about guitars... ahah... hmmm.... need some tricks down man.... like frontside 180's down the youth stage... the guys were so gr8t there yesterday.. met ryan and his group too... so ya... church on tomorrow... the skate park.. meeting tiangsan there i guess... if i decide to go... met ken and sam on the way to jamming today.... sam was like redish red red.. and ken was blackish black black.... so funny... but they looked cool... like the usual two guys.. somehow.. i saw mark at the small house there skating too... what the hells he doing there? hmm.... i need a haircut!... yea right.... fuck off.....

2004-08-04T02:15:00.000-07:00

come on come on come on come on now touch me baby!... u can see.. that im not afraid ..like was that promise that u made.. like will you tell me what she said!!!!!!!

im not afraid.... for all the stuff from the sky.....

fancy pants, carrot top, mr cool, spazzy jones, zach attack.... yea!

when will it go?

2004-08-04T02:05:00.000-07:00

fuck.. another fucking boring day.... chapel was funny.. with that pastor or whatever.... then john chao.. mr pesi... haha... school of rock is damn nice.... espacially the part where mr schneebly supossedly introduced the bass instead of the cello... haha.... that was funny.... and his eyebrows... haha..... skated at the banks with mike... ya ya... its a boring... tomoro supposedly gonna be great... the village i guess... shes still at the cheerleading thing i guess... wow... the kickflip i saw today was nice... it sort of like stuck to his feet before he landed... cool.... no chance to get it... by the way... im 14... its the most crucial period of ones life... depends wherether u go bad or good... hope i go goody good good... no smoking addictives.. drugs... stealing and fucking shit... hmm... jamming this saturday.. i still cant get the beat for better then life... pretty fast.. i suck man... man lifes boring without him.... just fucking boring.... no more fun days... funny jokes... talks... good friendship.. landing shit... no more curby frenzy.... all alone.. forever i guess.... as long as he still fucking gets angry whenever he sees me... its not gay or anything.. but would you say that if you lost one of your best buddies? i would.. thats what ive been saying... whens it coming back? never screw up with your friends... girls coime easierly then good friends... so cherish your friends more then your girls.... thats up to you.. but thats definitely for me.... nows 5.... and im home alone.... where are you! i m fucking bored... when will u forgive me? what will happen then will you...... i search for an answer to my question...... ill be back tonight..... thats if i get the com... fucking dumbass.... thats me.. thats me.....

2004-08-02T06:34:00.000-07:00

hey...im back.. its been really confusing... after she talked to me.. is she hinting what i think she is? i guess so... lets just wait for her to say it out.. and ill do what i wanna do... hmm... today had a tough game against jeco and chew... real tired... they are pro.. but anyhow played.. so... hmmm... lets see... tomoro... lit test.. project work file... maths class after skool... u think u can handle it? yea shure.. its me! haha.... ok.... bout what sam said last night.... yea the old blogs have really tarnished his name.. but who would beleieve me... so.. its like.. after he has left my world... it seems all dark.. lost a great or the best ever companion... no one to talk to.. no advices.. no morals... but.. i created all this.. so.. i just gotta live with it.. i really hope theres brightness at the end of the tunnel... where ill be given another chance and all... but.. for now.. i have to find my way through this never ending tunnel... which may never come to an end... hmmm....see... im such a lonely ass.... without the skating group... well im close to landing my clean 5-0 on the curb... the grind sound really kicks ass.... and my heelflips... landed back leg b4.. and front leg also.. but i dun have neone to teach.. so screw it... gtg study for lit... bite me.. grouch!

2004-08-01T06:44:00.000-07:00

hm.. i dun mean anything.. why does he keep thinking i am... im just asking.. im very happy that he doesn talk like the way he did ... so.. yea.. today.. grhh... sleepy and lazy day... communion... getting to know a new friend form bishan park sec i think... cool... the day just flew by like this.... thats it.. gettin ready for skool tomoro...

ILUC

2004-07-31T09:26:00.000-07:00

dint want to get anything up here today.. but ... so.... yea.. and im here after touring round my estate.. landing my f/s and b/s shove its many times... frontside shove is it? yea the one that sam is damn nice at is damn hard.. got many shin bruises if thats the way it goes.... well.... why does connies area have so many rapists... is that an occupation? hahaz... well.... all the damn construction workers... go home la! haha... dun u all dare touch connie k.... im bored... well my reynolds are damn cool... couple of guys at the park have complemented themn... and they feel nice.. ive been skating wo the goo tonight and its still perfectly fine.. not that my ollies are good or whatsoever... each time im in.. it just drags on.... each time i think of it.. it drags on too... when will i be let go off? well.... lets see if ive not been bothering you... the curb seems so empty and so lifeless.. screw it.. somehow even if thats the territory, wo that guy, it never feel great... thats just goes to show huw much he has been taken for granted b4.. better cherish if possible... well.... im tired... theres church tomoro.... and then ill be going to barker to try the steps and all.... so... i guess sundays are always like this till im forgiven.... catch who ever it reading this around... shoots him down...

One shot, one opportunity

2004-07-29T22:33:00.000-07:00

its been a while.. well lday lucks smiling to me i guess.. i can feel it... in the area of relationships ya.. hehe... well make good use of it.. u slip it by.. it never appears.. great.. i got reynolds 2 man.. so cool... the suede and blackness plus the toe whitness.. its just so cool.... got the protection on.. dint go skool today cos i aint wanna see those biathlon f*ckers... i slept.. haha... and watched school of rock.. the zachs song is really awesome.. i wanna masdter the drums for the intro part.. freaking tough.. for me la.... and yea.. whats best of everything in this week? is that sam aint that angry anymore... he doesn give that attiotude which he did when i pissed the f*ck out of him... he just replies like a starnger or something.. im pretty happy with tt.. hope we can be frends sometime later or even now.. actually.. its up to him.. i miss his companionship and all his gay talks which makes everyone laugh.. he is sort of the pillar of chancery come to think of it.... he doesn look down on others and by going to the park with me shows tt... cos i suck.. i mean varial heel? hello? how pro is tt... haha.. im gonna meet des for lunch now.. guess ill be at the park tonight...